Hours~Hours~Hours

Is saying I'm tired an understatement?
I feel guilty for wanting to sleep since I only have very limited time with my kids.
Am I being a good mom for working my butt off, doing my (almost) absolute best now in hopes it will be easier soon or am I being stupid for not looking for a more family friendly job?
I wish I knew the answers... before it is too late and I am regretting whatever it is...

It is rare that I even get a day off work every week anymore. And even if I do manage the miracle of a day off I am still working a heck load of hours...
2 weeks ago I worked all 7 days and same thing 3 weeks ago. Now, last week I did manage my 1st day off in 17 days!!! However in 6 days I worked 69 hours. My poor legs are still hurting and I don't know what to do!! This week I have worked Mon-Thurs and am at 42 hours. I am suppose to have of tomorrow-- but I be that doesn't happen! I have never had an anniversary off before so why would I expect anything different? But, even w/ 42 hours I still have to work Sat and Sun and after work Sun I have to throw my employees a Christmas Party!!

Am I being stupid working all these hours (salaried)? I am missing out on my kids and feels like I am getting no where. I adore my job- no joke... but I would love to only work 45 hrs a week!

Oh yeah not to mention 2 of my managers quit this month so if I am wrking 70 w/ them I guess I'll work 100 w/o them. I must be a real shit place to work since everyone is leaving! Even for lower pay they leave. I don't know what I am doing wrong but really something has to give! I am so tired and tired of working so hard~
O enough whining and complaining for one blog!